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The Beginning
It all started when she turned 10.
Young, fresh, new to everything.
Innocent.
Her new phone opened her to a world of possibilities - but also a world of darkness. Like a sponge, she absorbed all the information, the newfound wonder never-ending.
And then, she discovered social media.
Happiness
Could this be bliss? She'd never known such freedom and fun. Making new friends, learning new things, it's like a whole new world!
Finally a place where she was accepted.
Finally a place where she was loved!
She could get used to this.
She wanted this!
She could be great! She could be famous!
What could go wrong?
'Perfect'
Wake up. Eat your medicine for breakfast. No water, you will feel bloated. Update your Instagram. Pretend to be confident. Nobody will find out. #wokeuplikethis even though you're wearing 5 layers of makeup to hide
your dark circles. Pretend to eat lunch. Vomit it all out. Vomit a little
more for good measure. Time to exercise. Run until your legs burn.
Jump until you're numb. Go home. Pretend to eat dinner. Your
parents are angry again. Go to your room. Eat your medicine
for supper. Stare at the mirror until you can't anymore.
Weigh yourself and be disappointed in yourself again.
Go to sleep to forget everything. Lapse and binge
at 3am. Hate yourself. Vomit everything out
again. Love the feeling of feeling hungry.
Hate the feeling of food on your tongue.
What's the point of living if you're
not beautiful? Update your
Instagram. Pretend
like you're okay.
Nobody can
find out.
After
all,
you're
just
ugly
ugly
ugly
ugly
ugly
ugly
ugly
ugly
ugly
ugly
ugly
ugly
ugly
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ugly
ugly
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This is What You Wanted
Just remember,
you asked for this.
Liriel
Name: Liriel
Age: 10, 12, 16, 17
Gender: Female
Religion: -
Strengths: Motivated (if you can say that), in touch with trends, popular
Weaknesses: Easily swayed, insecure, impressionable, gullible
Likes: Being perfect, looking beautiful, being liked
Dislikes: Herself
Backstory: Influenced by social media as a young child and grew up only striving to be perfect and beautiful, doing whatever it takes to fit in to the standard of beauty. She developed body dysmorphia in her obsession to become perfect and is unable to see herself as beautiful or even normal. Since then, she has hated herself and her appearance.
Relationships:
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Self with social media influencers: Idolises them, wishes to look
like them and live their life
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Self with parents(?): Parents do not realise there is something wrong until it is too late, always encourage her to be healthy and exercise lots because skinniness is their impression of 'healthy'
Goals: Be beautiful, be perfect, be loved <3
